2004 - 2009
The University Chronicles on 2010-02-24
It's come to the point where I haven't washed for worn make up for the past three days, and then the three before, which pretty much reflects how I am at the moment.
I want to drop out of university, I can't live like this anymore. It's definitely not the work that I can't handle, because I'm doing fine in it, it's just the total lack of social interaction and having people around with similar values. I don't understand how someone can possibly live like this, it's slowly, but somehow surely, destroying me inside.
I've noticed everytime I come back to Leicester from London, it takes like a day to get over the change in place. I just hate being stuck here all the time with no one to talk to.
It's not like everyone's avoiding me or talking behind my back, it's nothing like that, it's just that no one here wants to do ANYTHING. And I mean anything. Their lack of interest in socialising is killing me.
I want to drop out of university and work back at home. And when the time comes for it, I want to start again in the right place for me.
I haven't been happy since I've started here, the only time I have is when my friends at home visit, because unlike the people here, they also have a need for some sort of social interaction.
It's hard to describe.